Selamat Malam Cinta~Umm, most to most i always upload this picture. Not alot picture of him at my lappy.
Firstly i wanna say,
"I MISS YOU EX BOYFRIEND". I dont know how much longer can i take to recover my heartbroken. You say it all, but i wont accept. Cause, you're no longer the old Iswandy that i've known long ago. You've changed alot my dearest, and i dont know why.
Since you became friend back with
"HIM", you forget about me. Why? I dont know how much more can i take, all i have to do is to let you go and to let you realised what mistakes you had done towards me now. Im stressed with your
"New Behaviour" towards me. I dont accept, you should know what i expect from you beloved. Everypeople whom i known long, told me to be more patient while having relationships with you. But, i do say i really cant. They see my tears falling out of my eye, they hug me. They do really care about my problems with you. Do you really takenote of that my dear? No, i dont see any of that. You seem not to know how to love and takecare of me. All you do is, sticking all around with
"HIM". Im sick and tired to hear his name all over. I hate him, thats it. And i will not admit that his my ex. His just to over-act & egoish. Do you ego beloved? I guess, yes you are. You just dont know how to love me, do you know what is the maening of love? I guess, you dont know. Thats why you done shit towards me. When the first time i sound you break, you wont accept. You told me that you wanna changed, and i'll say okay and last chance. But, in the end you have not changed to the old Iswandy.I was waiting like a dog, you dont know.. And you dont want to find out why im like that. You know what, you always think about yourselves. And not me, you think about your friends and others. Why not me? Who am i to you? A dog or a normal friend of yours? Sorry if all the words im saying here would affect you heart or whatever. But, you need to know that
"I LOVE YOU SO MUCH, AND YOU DID THIS TO ME. HOW COULD YOU ISWANDY!" I cry, you dont know. Maeb, you dont bother about it anymore. All these while, you seem not to appriciate my love to you. And you dont know how sincere my love towards you, you just dont know that. You dont bother to come to school everyday, kept on tucking at bed and sleep.
My life shatterd when you did this to me. Mum gave me support, she told me to be
calm and not to think too much. And dont just about this relationships problem, would affect you health. In the end, it affect. I
sick for 3days, mum send me to polyclinic. On the day we broke up, i wanted to cry in the train. But i really cant, i cry inside my heart. Kept thinking of you everywhere i go. People dont notice it, and i do it as a low-profile to me.
Baby, do you really love me? If you do, then why must you turn out this way? How to concerntrade on my exam if i kept saying and thinking about you all day. See, after we break up then we start to contact everyday.
But if we still in the relationships, you dont seem to contact me everyday. You would give me 1001 excuses. Tell me that you have no pprd balance and etc.
*Sigh.I dont know what to day anymore, its all about that
"BLOODY STUPID CHITOT A FRIEND OF YOURS" make you changed diffrently. Please forget about him, you tolld me that his caring?
WTF*. Am i dreaming? HAHAHAHAHA ! His just to over-acting okay bie. Please leave him, need not to have a friend who black-hearted like him. Find another good friend, like
Yazli. When you with Yazli, theres nothing wrong with you. And im happy with that, his trying to help me cause of you. His a nice and good person, learn frm him.
With him, you have no problem. You did go home early and didnt lie to me. But, with that
"IDIOT", you didnt listen to my advises went home late at night & didnt come home.
Do you think im not worried? Like a mother worried about her daughter didnt went home.
I was thinking about that. Hais, i dont know what more you want from me.
I gave enough love to you now, but you just dont cherish it thats all.
My heart told me, to give you once last chance. But, i told myself i wont be with you again now.I scared that you did the same thing again. Last 2days, talk otp with you was great.
Miss your voice and your laughter. Miss that babyboy. I convince you to changed and talk about your mistakes, and then you listen attentively now. But, why should i say all that to you? It is because, i love you. You just dont know. I told everymistakes you've made, and you realised it. Why should i told you? You should know, you told me that you dont know what you're doing. Crap. Then, you said that i know you yourselves and your background. Yes, i do know about you alot. Currently, mcging with you now.. Miss you Baby. Sobs. So long, tc readers.
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