Pssft,
im back yaw. Im out with my beloved cousin,
FAANAA PIRANA.
Ohh, currently at her crib now. Miss ALYA so much laa sei.
Ohh, just now went to meet FAANAA at Tampines to pass her ndp ticket.
I cant make it on this Saturday, so i gave my ticket to her.
Hope, shes going with Yan. Hahaha !
Ohh, will be going back home later on. Im resting at her crib siot, very tired ler seh.
Hmmmm, nothing much about today accually.
But, i got caught short skirt by DM.
Like duuurrrh, hahha ! Ohh, top up for that idiot boy.
Iswandy if cause. Hahha !
Told him to used wisely. Okay ler, im running out of words.
Toodles.
Im bored, thats it.
What should i do? I dont want to slack.
Boring, so will stay at home.
Nothing to do, eat Nestum and mcg-ing people.
Hmmm, im just bored. Can anyone entertain me please?
Hahaha, jk.
Okay bye.
Currently in school now.
Doing my CPA lesson and etc.
Teacher teach was damn boring, so im here blogging.
Hahaha, stupid teacher.
Will update again when reached home later at 2pm.
Toodles peeps.
CURRENTLY NOT IN A GOOD MOOD.
LEAVE ME ALONE FU*KER.
Left over photo outing with beloved cousin.
Im bored, so i wanna talk about my abang's life.
Firstly, do i look alike my abang up there?
Most say yes and most say no. Hahaha, whatever laa.
I love my abang, his kind to siblings.
To his friend? Idk about that.
But, the very sad thing is he broke up with one of his ex.
Through out the four years of relationships, hais.
I miss the both of them being together.
Although my abang is a hot-tempered person,
sometimes he can control. Only see his mood swing.
My abang is very kind to me and my sister.
Abang bought us present and a present kiss to me and sister.
I dont wanna loose my abang, his my precious one.
Though, before i made him mad and he scold and beat me.
I would be thanked to have a brother like him.
He cared for his sisters, Yayaastro & Hudaastro.
Never wanted my abang to be very angry about something.
If i hadn't have a abang like him, i dont know who is me.
He often advise me, he cared more about his siblings than friends.
I dont know how my brother felt having a sister like me who is head-stoned.
And another sister whom always shout shout shout.
His my one and only abang i have in this world.
If mum didnt brought him to this world, i dont know everything that is good.
My abang wants the best for us. Sometimes, we do make jokes and tears of joy.
I love abang, no matter what.
After i discharged from Singapore Girls' Home, abang truly cared about me. While im inside the home, friend told me that abang cry when he heard that im supposed to go Remand. In lock-up, i cry. I never wanted to leave my preciousones or loveones. But, i have to faced my sentence. From there, i know my abang loves me. When i reached home, abang would say something good. Abang, i appriciate your caring and loving. Once, when i start to smoke at home. Abang scold me badly, in the end he allowed. And we both shared ciggerates. From there i know what he means. Abang means alot to me.
Lastly, i missed seeing them being together again. They broke up, i told mum. And mum was suprised to hear the news. Immediately, mum text abang and ask about it. Waste of 4years relationships being together. Wont eleborate more, tears falling babe.
Toodles.
Remember to always say what you meanIf you love someone, tell them.Don't be afraid to express yourself.Reach out and tell someone what they mean to you.Because when you decide that it is the right time it might be too late.Seize the day. Never have regrets.And most importantly, stay close to your friends and family, for they have helped make you the person that you are today.
Get this phrase from my email.
Sweetest ever.
He was pronounced dead at 2.26pm this afternoon.
His only 50 and his dead, ohhmg cant believe it.
Micheal Jackson was born on, 29 August 1958.
I heard alot from people that his Muslim.
Is he the real Muslim people? Idk.
But indeed, mum said so his Muslim.
Whatever his races is, mae god blessed him.
*ameen*
R.I.P MJ !
Yesterday out with beloved cousin,
Shekyngendut and Shashamonster. First we met at Jurong, then took train to City Hall.
Headed to Marina Square, Shekyn want to buy Mango thing-gies.
Hell yeah, many of the shop on sale now. Thats great !
Hahaha, but i didnt bring much money yesterday. Mum didnt enough money, so i dont bother so shopping. Hudaastro kept being together with Shashamonster, hahaha.
Umm, yesterday outing was co-curpt. No plan siyol,
then just go anywhere. I dont remember much about yesterday outing.
Maeb after Marina we proceed Peni to buy Shashamonster belated present by her sister, Shekyngendut. Cut the story short, we went to Clark key to slack.
Cam-whore here and there was fun ! HAHAHA.
My throat was dry, so i bought bubble-tea to filled up my dry throat.
blablahblaaah. Went to Bugis, Shekyn bought dress.
After all that, no plan and tired. So, decided to went home.
Went home took train, and then seperate.
Reached Jurong, we seperate. Then, went court meet Suuketot.
Went to my crib, she playing my lappy to update her blog and etc.
After maghrib, she wanna slack with Kiddysayang and Kyd Unique.
Slackslackslack, Kyd went home.
Left me and Suuketot at first at Bb, then Kiddysayang came again.
Few minutes time, Suuketot went home.
Left me and Kiddysayang at Bb, slackslackslack.
Both of us, gossiping about the "two susuk girl"
Hahahah, kekek siyol ! Slack, time passes very quick.
Time turns 11pm, Cino and Ijam was down slacking with us.
Cino's entertain us with his guitar and Ijam was making full of jokes.
Hahaha, damn funny ler that Ijam.
Around 11plus i went home with KiddySayang.
Went home and dad nag at me.
"Wah, dahbes probation kaw asyik merayab jek eh. Tak ingat nak balek siang hari."
Aper jek my dad. Hahahaha, skali skaler per Ayah.
And about the outing with beloved cousin i didnt have the photos that we snap.
Will upload it some other time.
Toodles.
Not much about today.
Met Kiddy at 436 slack and then went home.
Talk shit and gossip here and there.
Toodles.
Booo !
At home, nothing to do now.
I dont know how to eleborate about me today. Ohh, i've changed my blogskins and song.
This song makes me wanna shake, hahaha. Nice-nice song bebeh !
Ummm, my baby text me earlier just now.
She ask me to come down slack together maeb. Later okay baby?
Mama didnt let me dome down when it raining. She scared i would sick or whatever.
Later at evening will be meeting her. Ohhh, i've gain weight siot !
ADOOOI, FAT ALREADY SIAA !
I want my past body, sweet body i ahve on 2006 and 2007.
Came to 2008, i become fat. Ohhmg, hahahha.
Alright then, out of words.
Toodles.
Happy Monthsary to
Suuketot & Lanchikano !
Lustlong you both.
INSOMNIA INSOMNIA INSOMNIA
Ohhh, cannot sleep now.
Didnt do much of surfing today, cause im still busy repairing my stupid handphone.
AARRRG. Just now, several numbers text me.
I dont know who and where they get my number from. As usual,
"nak kenal-kenal OR what kawan"
Eh, wtf i wont entertain siot people like that. EEEEE, PUH-LEASE !
I wanted to light my ciggerates now, but i cant.
Mum still not turn in yet, though she knows im smoking.
Respect is what she said to me, hahaha.
Ouhh ummm, i hate my fringe now.
Grow longer, and became so fugly. EEEEEWWW !
Mum, i wanna cut again ! Can laa can laah !
Told ayah that my stupid phone spoilt, and ask him to buy new one.
He just smile, that mean he will buy for me for sure ! I know whose my dad okay.
When he smile, that mean i will get one. If he ignored, he wont bothered to entetain.
HAHAHAHA, STUPID RIGHT? HEEEEE.
Ohh, today bought ciggerates but it was menthol. I dont smoke menthol much.
So, the ciggerates is Luffman. I dont think in Singapore got sell that brand.
Hmm, currently listening to "Belaian Jiwa and Diantara Kalian"
OHHHMY, listening to those songs makes me wanna cry. And i dont know why siot ! Hahahaha.
Ohhh, i have one more thing to say again..
Again, he made me smile and laugh together with him. He kept looking at me while his playing his guitar. Ohhhmy, cant say anything now. People will be very busybody and jealous. So, will not make his reputation down.
And i'll eleborate about him "some". Not "much".
Heeeeeeeeeeeeeello.
Wake up very early today. Accompany Pap to mcys as staated yesterday post.
Was still sleepy accually. Hahahaha !
Ummm, after his reporting went to JE for their match.
They have friendly match and etc.
Ohh, one thing...
Heeeeeeeeeeeeeeello peeps.
Just came back from lepak-ing and Jurong Point.
Slack with my dearest friends and then went to Jp with Suuketot and Bear's Mum.
Ohhh, his mum cool and friendly. Hahahaha serious babe.
Both, accompany his mum to buy perfume.
My mum text me, ask me to accompany her at Teh Tarik while Daddy went for body massage.
Ohh, i was lazy then. Hahaha, thought of going home.
But then, slack again with Bear's mum near bb.
Slackk for while, then off i went.
Pap was mcging with me about tmr morning. Ohh, tmr morning will accompany him to mcys.
Maklom laaa, tung-case akuuu. Bro, bila mao on probation nie? Hahaha, jkjk !
Ummmm, ohhh currently msn-ing with Bear-gok.
And few minutes time will off to bed, cause tmr morning Pap will wake me up.
Wowww, kene bngn pag siot akuuu ! Lerrrrr, takpe.
Kesian aku tngk Pap peeg srng kan, so akuuuu teman dier lerrr. Hahahahaha !
And currently mcg-ing with Iswandy
Ohhh umm, till here then.
Toodles.
Heeeeeeeeeeeeeeello peeps.Kinda boring now, Suuketot came to my crib.
So, she skip school. Jahat ehhh dier, hahaha !
Still havent bath yet, hahaha !
Serious babe, belom mandi siot.
Dah pkol 1lebey uhhh jacko. Hahaha !
Ohhh ummm, alright then will update again when i came back from slacking.
Toodles.
Happy Fathers Day!
Thanks for eveything Ayah, idk how to appreciate you that eveything you gave me and how you love me. Thanks alot one & only beloved Dad !
I love you, hope your wishes come true and
moga panjang umor !
Heeeeeeeeeeeeeello peeps.
Today morning met mum after her work,
went to market and morning breakfast.
Didnt eat in the morning, just fresh up my throat.
I still sleepy today morning, felt like tucking on bed back again after i hang up mum called.
Mum and my maid woke me up. ERRRRRR, i wanna sleep okay you guys.
But, for whatever it is i have to drag myselves to the toilet to bath.
You know what guys, i bath for half an hour. Ohhhmg !
I was damn sleepy thats why,
hehehehehe. Paiseh siot gueeee ! :)
Ohh umm, yesterday CLOWNS told me that today morning they have friendly match at Juying Sec School Field.
Thought of not tagging along just now, as i feel sleepy still.
Pity my baby, Suuketot and others.
They ask me to tag along with them that morning, but i cant.
I need to meet my mum at POSB there then will be meeting you guys at NTI.
Went there quite late, cause im still searching for my tops in my drawer.
I dont what to wear, so i just took it and iron it. Text Suuketot before going out,
told her when if i miss called her that means im reach-ing.
2days i didnt have my own cigg, ask my brother 3stick.
Okay, cut the story short.
Finished the match, went to eat at Jurong Teh Tarik.
I dont know who wins and who loose. Hahahaha, didnt concerntrade lerrr dei ! Hah.
I didnt eat i just drink, drink Ice Mocha Dinosaur.
Shared my drinks with KAM-SIAO.
Finish eating, smoke then went to Court.
Only 4 of us left, thats include me.Went to Court slack for while, then i went back home.
Thought of going out with Kak Idah today, but no.
She went out together with my Abang. AAAARRRG, kurang ajar pey abang !
HAHAHAHA. Ohhh ummm, reached home eat Nasi Lemak that my dearest mum cooked.
MMMMMM, DELICIOUS !
After eating, rest and clean up my nail colour and then went to take a short nap.
So, i just woke up here. And im here to update my stuupid post ! :)
Boy, why are you with her? You ruin my building love already. You made me felt like im gave up hope on boys like you. Never expect that you're her boy-f. You made me really insane. Thats it, i have to forget you right now.
INSOMNIA INSOMNIA INSOMNIA INSOMNIA INSOMNIA INSOMNIA
INSOMNIA INSOMNIA INSOMNIA
INSOMNIA INSOMNIA INSOMNIA
I want to say something:
I miss my loveones
I miss Suuketot deeply.
I miss Kiddysayang more.
I want him, i want him !
I'm hurt, he made me hurt.
I wanna die soon, cann?
I need a break, be alone.
I need more advise please.
My mum lied to me about the HANDPHONE !
Idk what else can i do after i heard about you.
Felt like, i want to leave this world.
Please kill me someone, please.
I want to be alone and dont wanna being disturb.
All my dreams are shattered and gone.
Lastly, I WANT YOU TO GO FAR FAR AWAY FROM JURONG WEST !!!!!
Psftt, im hoooooooooooooooooooooooome !
Spammers ohh spammers.
GO TO HELL LAAAA EHHH, NO LIFE SPAMMING PEOPLE.
GET A FUCKING LIFE LERRRR SIYOL !
to cb, please get a fucking life indeed.
DONT BOTHER MINE,
I DIDNT MESSED UP WITH YOU OKAU CB !
BODO PEH ANAK, STEP HIDOP KAW TUH BGOS SNGT.
MAK AKU TAK CKAP PAPE, KAW DDOK DIAM-DIAM LUUUR SIYAL !
PRANGAI MCM "MAK-NYE" SIOT.
HAHAHAHAHAAHA !
YOU FUCKER !
Yesterday, woke up very early to acompany mum to kallang.
She have appointment at Skin Center.
We were rushing, but the bus was late.
The train was full in the morning. Ohh, not much to update.
And, yesterday mum bought me a eyebrow stud.
GOLD colour will be matching me mum said.
Hahaha, whatever.
Later i will be sleep-over my
closest cousin crib.
Iswandy will tagged along with me, include my lil sister.
*Hudaastro.And these few days after finish Probation, im kinda busy.
So, i will not be updating my blog these few days.
I dont know when will i come back home. If, i have time then i'll update using theirs laptop.
So, anything just contact me alright?
To taggies, i've replied to you all.
Read and understand okay.
Tc you people.
So long, toodles.
17JUNE2008-16JUNE2009,
start and end of Probation.
Finish my Probation today, and will not continue the old me.
Start afresh.
Learned my mistakes while im inside "SGH".
That Girls' Home, really make me suffer.
Ohhmg, treat people like.
Cant say lor. You people went in then you people will know.
Ummm, today was very tired. Damn tired,
so need to sleep early today.
Tmr morning, accompany mum to Skin Center.
Tc, toodles.
Get this survey from
KiddyBABI.
Hhahah.
1.If someone says " Are you okaaay? ", you'll say..
~Asal sebok-sebok eh?
2. How would you describe yourself?
~Kinda irritating & loudspeaker.
3. What do you like in a guy / girl?
~Boy, hmmm idk ehh.~Girl, loudspeaker like me!
4. How do you feel today?
~Mood-swing/frustrated.
5. Whats your life's purpose?.
~IDK.
6. Whats your motto?
~IDK.
7. What do your friends think of you?
~Irritating, crazy and etc.
8. What do your parents think of you?
~STONED-HEAD & HOT-TAMPERED.
9. What do you think about very often?
~Him and new phone.
10. Whats 2 + 2 ?
~Obviously 4.
11. What do you think of your bestfriend?
~Ohh, shes gorgeous !
12. Whats your life story?
~Being with him lor.
13. What do you want to be when you grow up?
~Make-up artist.
14. What do you think of when you see the person you like?
~I was like, OHHHMG !
15. What will you dance to at your wedding?
~I dont dance, just call the kude kepang group.
16. What will they play at your funeral?
~Malay didnt play, but pray.
17. What are your hobbies / interests?
~Listening music and read malay novels.
18. What is your biggest fear?
~IDK.
19. What is your biggest secret?
~WILL NOT TELL YOU.
20. What do you want right now?
~To be alone for the time being.
21. What do you think of your friends?
~Oh my, they are lovely.
22. What will you post this as?
~Survey lor.
- 23. gives how much people that you wish to do this survey ?
~FROM MY LINK PEOPLE.
SPAMMERS OHH SPAMMERS,
STOP BOTHERING ME LAAA.
AND DONT THINK I DONT KNOW WHO YOU ARE.
I DIDNT QUARRELL OR FIGHT WITH THEM BUT ONLY YOU.
I KNOW YOU HATE ME FOR WHAT I SAID TO YOU BEFORE.
YOU'RE SUCH A "ATTENTION SEEKER".
GET THAT ON MIND. STOP BEING EGO LER EH.
YOU'VE ALREADY THROWN ME OUT FROM CLOWN,
AND NOW YOU'RE HERE TO SPAM ME FOR FREE.
OHHMG, NO FUTURE IS IT? YOU NO LIFE PERSON.
GET THAT ON MIND. AND DONT THINK THAT YOU'RE "SO HANDSOME" LAA EH.
YOU'RE SUCH A COWARD, PUT YOUR NAME THERE LAAA DENGS.
WHY, SCARED PER? HAHAHA !
CALLING ME FAT OR ETC DOES IT BOTHERS YOU?
AND I DIDNT CALL YOU MUCH, ONLY THAT WORD.
KIWOK, MEREPEK SIYOT KAW.
HAH, SIMPLE ENOUGH.
"GET A LIFE, AND FUCKED OFF".
1day left, goodbye probation!
Start afresh after tmr !
Meet Iswandy at my crib the went off to other places to slack.
Miss him lots, though yesterday met him. Ahahaha.
First, slack at court with Suuketot/LanCHIKANO.
Then, went to Longkang to slack.
No wherelse to go kan, so went there.
Umm, kinda bored accually.
Cam-whore here and there, hahaha.
Will upload some of the photos here.
And his busy tying my hair and make them messy.
Stupid ler, hahaha.
But, it was nice ! Hahaha.
Dont get mistaken, were only ex. And he do make me released my stress.
1day left, and goodbye probation!
:D
Busy now, will update tmr.And met Iswandy first before meeting them at cck.
And i forget to snap photo together with Iswandy.
Ohhmg, baby you dgan i together luper ler.
Hahah !
Will be meeting Iswandy later on.
Both will be going cck to watch "kk".
And not to forget, cousin will be there too also.
Yesterday, Iswandy went to my crib.
Ohhmg, imysm ! Baby, imysm laaa siyol !
Andand my maid was busybody watching what he do and talk.
Wtf. Hahaha, but doing nothing okay.
Dont think wrongly. It just, lepaskan rindu sahaje.
He and his parents went to pasar malam near my house.
So, he decided to meet me at my crib.
Hell yeah, his hair was long.
SACHOK ! :D
Andand, now im getting ready to go out.
But, wait for his mcg first laaa kan.
Will be meeting him at JP Interchange.
And not to forget too, i take out my tougue stud already.
Mum did ask me to, and i decided too.
Mum didnt scold me if im piercing, just dont put on tattoos.
Mum ask me to, it is because she scared that my tougue would have effection and etc.
It was irritating though playing with the barble in my mouth.
So, just left eyebrow piercing.
So long, toodles.
2days left.
Yesterday went out with Suuketot to Library.
After that, went to court.
Slack for while then go home.
At night, quarrell with "sumone".
Okay whatever.
He thrown me out from Clowns.
Okay whatever, i dont give a damn okay boy !
Whatever you wanna sae to Clowns', just sae.
As long a you're happy, thats all.
3days left.
Afternoon people, ohh just only woke up.
Hahahaa. Aper nyer anak dara ntah aku niek, hohoh.
Ohh, yesterday night went to Any image to cut my frindge with my mum accompanying me.
And yesterday otp with my Baby. Quite long we talk, and i dont rmbr what i say to him.
Hahahahaha, gyler siot aku. Ohhh,
4days left !
Afternoon people.
Today woke up at 12plus.
Ohh yeah, when i woke up in the morning i receive his mcg !
Yahooo~ The yesterday survey was great siaaaa.
The very last question is real, ohhmg ! Hahahaha.
Umm, okay i still havent bath yet. Lazy, later then i'll bath.
Ohh, today i''l be sticking at home only.
Lazy to slack at court nor bb. Relaxing at home would be better.
And im going to finish my probation! Yeah.
Left 5days andd still counting down.
In the morning, my probation officer text me.
And say that, on tuesday at 10am will be my last step to mcys.
Ohh, definately going with mum bringing my report book also.
Hmmmm, after that will turn over the new leaf ! (:
Happy dok. Alright ler, currently waeting for my Baby to reply my mcg.
Toodles.
Firstly, i was boring at home at this hour.
Currently chatting with Kiddysayang alone.
Andand, Dan Cod'zy ask me to slack for while at pondok there.
Slack for few minute then went home.
My maid was so busybody kept calling me ask me to go home.
Wtf. Hahahaha.
Okay bie, i jmp dan kejab jek.
Takmu jealous taw sayang.
And now im here to update the short post.
Ans still seaching for the new blogskins.
So, toodles.
Kiddysayang send me this
through msn.
1.whats your room colour ?
~light green.
2.whats your actual height?
~i dont remember.
3.if you told you to get married quick what will you do ??.
~no money, then dont married.
4.if your boyfriend/sister would say "lets breakup" whats your reaction ??
~i was like, wtf !
5.if your brother would be in jail what will you do ??
~cry cry and cry !
6.if your boyfriend/girlfriend would end up in hospital and in coma what will you do ?
~speechless and definately i faint.
7 . if you saw someone stripless your first reaction ??
~dont know.
8.the last person you chat with ??
~Dan Arcipalo.
9.whose the last person texted you and what ??
~My Probation officer. Told me that my probation is ending soon ! Yeah !
10.whats on your playlist now ??
~Better in time by Leona Lewis
11.the last thing you ever brought at a shop ??
~Packet of milo and a bun of coffee.
12.whats the most silly/cute thing your boyfriend/girlfriend last did?
~Laughing like hell siaaa.
13.its white & sticky what is it ?
~Sperm? Hahaha.
14.a romantic dream you would like you happend to you ?
~Yes of cause !
15.gives 10 people that you wish to do this survey ?
1. Kak Idah
2.Suuketot
3.Ayuumiee
4.FAANAA
5.Shekyn
6.Shasha
7.EiraTATING
8.Hudaastro
9.Baby Jepon
10.Ieaiea
16.right now what you wish to happend to you .?
Be happy and patch back with Iswandy.
17.if you caught boyfriend/girlfriend red handed in having affair ??
~I'll slap that girl face upside down.
18.if your mum gave you a thousand dollar what you did ??
~I'll shop till drop.
19.right now what are you thinking about ??-
~Thinking about Muhammad Iswandy of cause.
20. what is a thing that you want to burn so much right now .?
~Ohhh, my belley ! Hahha !
22.what would you wish to have now .?
~New handphone !
23.do you wish for someone to be by your side now ?
~Yes, Iswandy !
24.which country would you want to go ??
~Brazil.
25.would you ever wish to kiss someone else ??
~No. Only Iswandy will do.
26.you friend list ,if you would lost one frend what you did & who ?
~I'll cry and wanna kill myself. That is Suuketot.
27.if there a young baby on your doorstep,what you did ??
~I'll took care of it.
28. if your girlfriend/boyfriend got you pregnant what you did?
~I'll make sure he will be responsible about it. Serious !
29.whats the last sweet thing your love ones ever did to you ??
~Kiss my lips.
30.what would you want to happend the next morning you woke up ??
~Receive mcg from Iswandy and his beside me.
Ohh, at last i receive your mcg in the evening.
But, it was your last mcg. Cause you said that your pprd mati.
But atleast i receive mcges from you.
Baby, top up soon.
Ohh, saying about him doesnt mean im with him okay.
Just missing him only. Dont get wrong information people.
Ummmm, meet up soon baby !
Miss you ler !
I do and say that is because,
I LOVE YOU
Stop being pethatic please.
MUHAMMAD ISWANDY
Ohhmg, you dont know how much i missed you dearest ex.
How am i supposed to confront myself that i love you?
You just dont bother about that, i know.
You dont even bother to contact me some how.
You've changed alot my dear, you've changed.
And i dont know how to turn you like before.
I've no strength without you now, i left you and theres a reason.
I cant change my mind to have you back, you just dont change.
You hack care about that, you enjoy and im here sobbing.
Dont you know that Iswandy? Do you ever care to know about how i felt?
You just did, only into mcging. And i dont believe in that, you should know why.
Action come first than talk, and thats all i need.
After we boke up, you love to spend time with friends rather than me.
Thought you promised me to show me your love. But where is it?
Baby, im insomnia. All because of you, you make me wanted to cry.
I cant sleep well, cause one whole day you didnt mcg me nor call me.
Im worried, damn worried. Why must you change? Why?
I dont know who to express my feelings and laughter to,
and always i do is you. You alone Iswandy.
I know you knew that, but do you ever wanted to know more?
Eh, i dont know what im saying now. Cause, im still stress about you.
Your behaviour made me felt stupid and dumb.
Your lie made me felt im useless and easily gone mad.
Your sweet talk made me felt i wanna kill myself.
Those 3things that you had done towards me i just close one eye.
Pretend that i dont know anything nor everything.
Once people told me, i would easily confront you.
But, you just kept quiet if you're in the wrong.
But, sumtimes you just get annoyed by hearing my nagging.
My nagging to you is that i love and care about you.
You jusst dont bother to know and ask why im like this.
You know all about me, even my family.
You, i dont really know all and your family.
You still kept sumthink behind my back, and i dont know.
You drink, i dont know. Why must you lie to me? What had i done towards you ex bf?
You made me wanna cry out loud in the middle of the night you know.
You busy going out with friends, i thought you remember that i wanna meet you yesterday and
today.
But, you ignored. I mcg, you didnt even reply.
How could you, i hate it okay baby !
You make me wanna kill myself, you dont know how i felt right now.
I really wanna cry now, but all i need to be strong.
Be strong Hidayah, be strong.
No one knows how i felt, only god.
His the only one that knew me well.
I really miss your laugh and voice my dear, where are you?
Im worried.
Currently listening Mj12 alone.
Otp with Dan Cod'zy.
And im boring, thats it.
Im so damn bored, grrrr.
MY BABIES~
Out with
Shekyn-Gendut to
Marina Barrage.
The both of us only. Others didnt tagged along, busy with N Levels'.
So, study hard girlfriends ! All the best to you guys next month.
Went to Marina Barrage with empty stomach, arrrrg hungry*.
Snap sum photos at there, the wheater was damn hot.
And the photos was not with me now. Its with ShekynGendut.
Will grab from her if she done updating.
Yeah, at rooftop the air was cool but it was damn hot.
*uck man, we go at noon. Hahaha, have to siot.
Having probation is seriously damn sickening ! Arrrrg*
Left 1week to finish my stupid probation yawww.
~Yessaaaah ! Gerek joy.
Then can enjoy2 with my babies and loveones more often.
And after the probation life, want to start afresh.
New leaf~
Wont repeat again my mistakes and wanna change.
Im trying, im trying.
Okay, cut that crap about probation thing.
Continue, ohhhh after that we went to Bugis to eat.
Eat at TongSheng then go survey at Bugis Junction.
Ohhh, im craving for alot of stuff yaaaw!
Mum, i wanna buy please please ! *sad face*
I dont think my mum would let me buy lots of stuff.
Shit siaaa, hmmm nehmind lor.
Okay, both tired and headed home.
ShekynGendut go meet Aleez at lot, and im off alone.
Took 98 to court to meet Clowns'.
Slack for while, and im still tired.
Ohh, miss them alright. Ohh, after that mum ask me to buy for dad Nasi Lemak.
Went pasar malam with Kiddysayang.
Bought her drink, cause i know she thirsty.
Her laugh was cute siaaa, i loike ! Hahaha.
Yeah Kiddysayang, your laugh cute lor ! Hehehehe.
Ohh, and went straight home and here im blogging.
And not to forget, took picture with my two babies.
Suuketot & Kiddysayang.
They are my babies alright, love yaaa both ler.
And now, im still waiting for Kiddy to send me those picture and will be upload later on.
Till here then peeps.
Toodles.
Not much about today accually people.
But firstly have to say,
Today Boring !
Thats it. Today was very boring than ever.
Went out with mum to sumwhere else,
then survey for my new handphone.
Meet Clowns' at court,
slackslackslack..
Left Me, Manzoor and Acap at court.
So, few minutes time went home.
And, ohh so boring.
And not to forget, tmr will be going out with my beloved cousins'.
FAANAA & Yanaa didnt tagged along.
Both, busy.
So, will update tmr then.
Toodles.
Left over photo~
Yesterday
Out with sum of the Clowns' to Changi Beach.
Nizam's lil sister bdae. So, they celebrate at there.
They journey to Changi was long, and i was so tired.
I felt sleepy in the train, though the boys blow jokes.
From Jurong East, i stand holding the pole until we've reached Bedok.
Ohhmg, my legs cramp. Survive babeh, ahah.
Ohh, reached Bedok took bus number 2 to Changi.
Journey was quite long, Boi entertain us by playing Pap's guitar.
I sat alone, hearing jiwang song. I was having a headache accually.
Oh, we snap photos yesterday. But, the photo was not with me though.
I dont mind. Yesterday, went home early at about 6plus.
With Pap, Ace & Cod'zy. Four of us went home first.
Three of us have curfew, but Cod'zy no.
Btway, at Changi was damn fun and exciting !
I love riding the double-bicycle with Suuketot.
From end to end, hahaha. Funny siaaa us.
Hmmm, four of us took bus 19 to Tampines Interchange.
Then took train to Jurong Interchange.
I felt like sleeping inside the train, hahahaha !
Very tired siaaa me. Ace and Pap was not with us after i and Cod'zy reached Jurong.
I went home together with Cod'zy, he accompanied me home.
Reached court, saw sum of Clowns'.
Slack for while with them then i went home.
Again Cod'zy accompanied me. Hahahaha !
Reached home, quickly call Iswandy.
Told him that i reached.
I told him sumthing, and he was mad at me.
He mad at me like hell, and he just hung up the call.
And i was like, aaaarg. But, i know its my fault of telling him that.
Okay whatever.
If i do receive the picture, i'll update alright?
:D
Today
Went out early this morning to Downtown with parent.
Still sleepy though, have to follow.
Dad want to go Downtown to take sumthink, so mum and i followed him.
After all that stuff, we went for wedding invitation.
Ohh, while we were on our way it rain heavily.
Reached, eat and the rain came more heavier.
Not much about today accually.
But, it wwas very tiring day for me and mum.
Didnt sleep well yesterday night.
Mum diffrent, she didnt sleep went she came back from work in the morning.
Pity her, now she's asleep. Later she will be awake, i guess so.
So, just now went down with my maid to meet my babies.
Suuketot, Lanchikano and Cod'zy.
They were waiting for to play badminton. Hahahah !
So, i came down. Suuketot thought that i "paitaw" her.
No laa sayang, i dont. Heeeh.
Ohh, after playing slack for while. Finish smoking then went back home.
Reeached home, on lappy and here im updating.
Hahaha, okay lah im off now.
Will update when im free.
Toodles. :D
Will update tmr about Clown outing to Changi beach.
Currently, searching for blogskins template.
And background will be changed.
~EiraTATING;
Please dont leave me, i love you kak.
Though, we do quarrel and misunderstanding but i do still love you.
Why you leave us? Its hurt that i heard alot from you kak.
I dont want you to leave me and others, what will they say?
And what about your boyfriend kak? Do you think of that??
Kak, dont follow your heart. Suuketot and me do still need you.
It was damn hurt when you said, you're leaving.
I know we do fight and etc, like you said
let it be bygones then bygones.
But why you have to leave? Please some back kak.
We all need you, we will miss you.
I know you stress about sumthink, but think about me and suuketot.
Both of us need you right here. We were worried about you,
long time didnt meet up. Please kak, make your last decision.
Make up your mind for not leaving us, i dont want us to far apart.
We still want you as Clown.
Please kak. EiraTATING,
Yayaastro love you !
Take good care of yourself aye? *sobs.
Yaaaaaw~ Im back !
1st day
Ohhmg, it was terriblely boring went it came for the first day.
Damn boring, though we went Sentosa.
Sentosa? Very hot day that day.
I was not in a good mood though had so much fun playing soccer and frisbee.
I dont quite remember about the first day accually.
So, at evening reached school straight went to canteen..
Listen to insturction then went to shower.
Was damn hot, though it was at night.
Hmmmmm.
That night i, Nanatotsu, Rara & Baby Jepon was tip-toeing along the corridors.
As usual, went to smoke at the new block. ahahahahaha !
We were like, robbers like that.
Hahahah !
Then, we went back as per normal. Pretend that nothing happend.
Then, went back to classroom to listen to mj12.
Wtf, the stories all were scary like shit siaaaa.
4 of us were damn scared siot. Sleep at 3am, woke up at 4plus.
Heard a loud thunder, makes me shoke and woke up.
I woke them up, then go for shower.
I only sleep for 1hour, but didnt accually tired that morning.
2nd day
Quarrell with Iswandy and alot of people.
These time i had really no good good mood !
Those people kept annoying me, exspecially Fazwee.
Same group with him makes me wanna die.
Irritating basterd, thats him.
Quarrell with Iswandy about sumthing, and i wont mention.
Make it low profile, ahahs.
That day, do routine as the day before.
Whole day was at school, i dont remember doing what.
All i remember is at night, we all playing Candles and sum of the bulding is light off.
OOOOO, scary..
And at evening, after all the games and etc went for shower with my babies.
Ohh, i fight with Baby Jepon in the cubicle.
Wtf, she make me mad like hell 'till my tears came out.
I shout at her like my own world, ohhh shes the second person whom make me angry.
That day also, gave Dan Cod'zy powernote.
" blahblahblahblah."
I receive alot of good comment in the powernotes.
And he forgive me and he forgiven. Hahahah, simple enough.
Okay, i dont remember.
Last day
Today, woke up damn late.
Overslept, we all we rushing to the toilet to take a shower.
Didnt talk much today with them, mood swing.
Ohh, listen to intruction...
blablablahblahblahblah.
Went back home, ohhh with Dan Cod'zy.
He accompanied me everywhere, thanks Dan.
(:
Ohh alright lor people, im just uploading the picture taken during camping.
Toodles.
