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Went to cousin crib at cck just now. I miss them alot okay people, they are really my loveones.
Borrowed Ayuumie's sleeping bag for my camping next week. Will be busy next week yawww.
3days not at home, will be in school. Miss home badly, gosh. Hmmmmm, and tmr will be meeting my closest cousin again at Downtown. Familyday/Mayday i guess, daddy bought us tickets.
Obviously i will be swimming like a duck in the pond. Hahahahaha ! Hmmmm, i know i will not be going home late. Aunties concern about me, betolbetolbetol ! hahhahaha.
Ohh, confirm tmr will be my happening and fun day with they all. Long time didnt meet them, include Alya Farzana. So, im still waiting for my cousin to send me those pics that we've took.
Easy to say, cam-whore. Hahahahaha. And after coming back from cck, went home to take money to buy cigg then meet budak2 at court. Ohh, miss them yawwww.
Ohh yeah, long time didnt meet them. But, i will seldoms cum down lepaking. Not used to lepak everyday, it will get boring one day. And then, we proceed to bb. Nana Devil and Haikel went down to meet me. While others busy changing clothes to go fishing at Marina. Not much about today people, update soon. Tc toodles.

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Ohh Nurulhuda,

Happy birthday to you,Happy birthday to you,Happy birthday to Nurulhuda,Happy birthday to you.

Mae all your wishes cum true too okay? Tc my lovely adek.

Aper lag yg krg nak ckap psl aku uh? Tak ckop per? Knper slalu aku yg jad sensarernyer?
Krng tak buley tngok aku bahagie sekejab ker? Knaper uh knaper? Knaper krng tak buley hentikan? Krg suker tngok aku sensare mcm ginie? Salah ker kalao aku sukerkan dier?
Aper kenemengene dgan krng? Kalo krng tak suker aku dgan dierh, sudah laaa. Aku akan luperkan dier. Aku dah dgar sumer kate-kate krng. Tolong la krng, hentikan. Aku taknak pikol beban aku lag. Knaper krng busuk hati sngat uh? Aper salah aku dah buat dgan krng? Aku tak kacau periuk nasi umah krng kan. So, hentikan kate-kate buley tak? AKU DAH CKOP DGAR !
Tolong la, aku taknak dgar lag. Aku tak sangke, kawan aku sendiri bbl blakang. Ini per krng kater sisterhood and brotherhood?? Mnr dier sisterhood and brotherhood lamer aku? Krng sumer dah berubah. Aku tak tahan hidop mcm ginie, krng taktawu mcm mnr aku rase okay.
Cuber kalo krng jad aku, perasaan krng mesti samer dgan aku. Please laaa, hentikan !!!!
Tolong laaa krng, saket hati aku byler aku mendengar kate-kate burok.. Aper aku what sumernye salah, krng jek yg nak betol. Okay, kalo krng taknak kwan dgan aku lag aku tak heran. Aku takperlu kawan mcm krng suker bbl blakang. Kawan mkan kawan, aper niek?
Mnr krng pey janji tok berkawan selame-lamenye?? Mnr? Manis dimulot ajer krng taw.
Aku rase, aku dah bkan jad budak Clown lag. AKU DAH PENAT. AKU PENAT, AKU TAKPERLU KRNG LAG DLAM HIDOP AKU. TAKDE ORNG MENGERTI APER YG AKU ALAMI. Knaper mesti krng busuk hati & iri hati kerane bende kecik mcm ginie? Knaper sia? Aku taknak gdoh dgan krng, buang mase aku. Serious uh, aku tak kacao hidop krng per. Krng takperlu kacaw hidop aku kan... Aku tak tahan, serious uhhh !!!! Aku tak marah dgan krng, cumer aku sedih jek. Knaper mesti krng aim aku? Asal tak orng laen? Jahat sngat ker aku dgan krng? Aku berkawan dgan ikhlas, krng mcm setan. Aper niek? AKU TAKDE NIAT BUROK DGAN KRNG KAN, KNAPER MESTI AKU YG JAD MANGSE NYE? KALO KRNG TAK UKER AKU JAD MATAER DIER KER APER KER... BLNG JEK LAAAA. AKU BULEY LEPASKAN DIER. TAP, TOLONG LAAA, HENTIKAN KATE-KATE GANAS KRNG. AKU TAKPERLU DGAR. Dah 4tahun aku bersabar dgan krng sumer, ginie per krng bayar aku alek? Kalo sesiape yg bacer post niek, harap krng paham uh. To budak clown, saper saper yg bbl blakang aku kan, tolong diamdiam sudah. Dah abes bacer, takperlu nak bersuare saner sini. Krng pey prangai aku dah sental bnyak2. Slalu mcm ginie, dah bacer... mesti mulot mcm pantat ayam. Tak bulet diamkan. Sudah laaa, aku taknak dgar aper aper lag dari mulot krng. Krng suker bbl psl hal orng laen, hal sendiri taktawu nak jage. Mcm diri krng tuh baek sngatsngat. And aku tak ckap aku niek baek sngat eh. Diamdiam suaaaa eh. Aku tak uker kaypoh2 dlam relationships orng, so krng pon takperlu sebok2. Aku benci uh mcm ginie, aku takde niat burok okay dgan krng. Krng jek yg melebey daun. Please laaa, aku mohon dgan krng. Mulot ttp uhhhh ehhhh, prangai peg betolkan dulu kalo nak bbl pasal orng. Jgan krng ingat krng tuh "TERLALU MULIA DAN BGOS". Nobody is perfect, i mind you. Sudah laaaa, maken aku ckap psl krng maken naek binget uhhh . TO ALL BUDAK CLOWN, YG TERASE TUH MULOT DIAMDIAM. AKU TAK UKER BBL PASAL ORNG MELAENKAN DIER PERNAH BUAT PRANGAI DGAN AKU. NIEK, FIRST AND THE LAST UH GUYS AKU NAK DGAR ALL THE SHIT COMING OUT FROM YOUR BLOODY MOUTH. EXSPECIALLY, " YOU !!" Jangan krng piker krng niek pandai sngat dan teramat pandai nak bbl psl orng. Mnr yg cemburu tuh, ddok diamdiam suaaa.


Ms Irnani just text me a moment ago, told me that today reporting cancelled. She's not feelings today, and i told her that i am too. Hahahar. Okay, immediately text Iswandy and told him that my reporting today was cancelled. Wth, he said i disturb him while his eating chicken. Siao, hahar. Thought of meeting him today, kinda lazy and he want to go out later on too.
Haiyooo. Gosh, these few days i dont have any plans. Shit, damn boring. Thought of going to Cino's crib later on, but i dont know weather i wanted to or not. Lazy, and i havent shower. Huhhhhu, ohhh its afternoon already siaa. I miss his nenek ! Ohh, his moving house.
I dont know he follow who, but i know his mum moving to Boonlay. I guess, he didnt followw his mother. He follow his Aunt living at Chua Chu Kang. Hmmmmmmm . Okay laaa, will update again later on. Want to take shower ! Tc


Morning Sunshine, didnt attend school today.
Today got reporting with Ms Irnani at TP Mcys. Ohh, Iswandy will be accompanying me.
I dont know if he really accompanying me later on. Hmmmmm, okay done.
Will update later when i came back. Tc


Ohhmg-ohhmg, damn boring now. Dont know what to do siyal, gosh.
Whole day sticking at home nothing to do, just playing lappy.
Ohhmg, nothing to do siot now. I want sumthink to do now, arrrg !
Currently chatting with, Farhan & Zul. Chatting with them also, was damn boring.
But, i didnt say that they are boring. I dont want to lepak, the routine that i always do.
But now, i felt more and more boring !! Arrrrg. My body aching all over, ohhmg.
Mum, help me. Im bored sticking at home during probation. Arrrrg.
Tmr will go for reporting. Iswandy accompanying me to Toa Payoh, sanggop taw.
Hahaha, thanks dearest. Ohhmg, why i kept saying ohhmg? Arrrg, boring !
Ohhh, miss him okkay. Hmmmmmm. Okay lor, i want to shower.

Ohh, today is the tired day ever. And sorry if i didnt update yesterday. I was damn tired, my legs are aching while walking. Went out with my Kiddy & Suuketot yesterday. Fun, but only went to Jurong Point to buy eyebrow & tougue stud. I bought eyebrow stud for Suuketot & Bob Baido. Ohh, accually yesterday was my lazyness day. Thought wanted to stay at home, then i remember that my two babies wanted to buy clothes. Arrrrg, okay go. Now, i just woke up from my short nap. Only 2hours i sleep okay, wasnt that short? Hahah. Thought of "salam" my mum before shes out for work. But, my eye were lazy to open and lazy to get up. Arrrrrg, im sorry mummy. So, about yesterday was not much and not that fun. After finish buying all those stuff, proceed to Court to meet sum of them. Awwww, im soo tired. My legs cramp ! Mummy, help me ! Umm, today at school Chakboi made me laugh non-stop. They kept teasing Mark Ambrose, ohmg ! Hahahahaha. My stomach pain when i laugh, i dont want to laugh accually. But, it was really funny seeing Mark being bullied. Hahahaha ! Okay cut if off. CPA lesson, went to the yahoo lab. Before that, i saw Iswandy ! Ohmg ! I miss him so much ! Ohhh, atlast. Hahahr. Yupyup, atlast saw him at sch. Cause, told him to. Hehehhes. Currently mcging him now, my eye still sleepy. ARRRRG, okay need to wash up. Done for today, will update more sooner or later.

It seem, everyday and everymoment i will cry. But why? After another, another came along.
First about "admire", second about"kawan sejati". But how am i to be strong after they treated me this way? As for my "admire", i guess stop thinking about me first. Then i'll forget you too.
I think, i cannot be with you. We're friends since my friend intoruduce to you and others. But, for all i know i had a crush on you on 2006 till now. But i didnt tell anybody, i just kept to myself.
If i let, people would think negatively about me. Wasnt that good enough for me to shut up my mouth? I didnt spread anything about you to others and my besties. My life, my own. But, again for all i know you find a girl whom pretty, beautiful, and "mampat". Thats it, im not that type of girl you want. And i guess, i better forget you. But i cant, im in love with you far too long. How?
My mind kept playing game about this, your name are wheeling around my heart and mind. To my dearest ex, Cod'zy im just sorry for everything. I cannot accept you again and anymore. The love or admire didnt grow on my plant. It grew in your flower pot, but i dont. Please forget me and shut your mouth about us. You like to spread to others, exspecially Lan & Suuketot. If not her, Boboi. Wtf, please stop everything that you guys planning. Okay, straight forward.
My admire is Boboi aka Cinopopet. His wonderful and active. He loves to go fishing and have style. I just cant stop thinking him on my mind, this mae make you people hate me of saying this. But, im saying it from my heart. Though, i dont know if he knows that i love him then i'll just shut up. I dont know now why listen to radio about love and listening sad song. I dont know why, but takling about love make me weak. Extremely weak, its like no one care and wont listen.
I will not posting about "kawan sejati" anymore. Ive enough. And i wont be posting about this more and long, people wont entertain. They will open their mouth and start their conversation about this. Whatever, just had enough of all that.






Ohh yeah, will be going out to sumwhere. Wanted to throw away my sadness and etc.
Will be going home late surely, will be thinking about this and that...
So, 1 whole day need not to text me aye people. Tc

Firstly when i woke up, i remember our annivasary today. But, all i know is that you're not my sweetheart anymore. But, no matter what i do always remind you about our annivasary. So, Happy 10MonthSary Ex Boyfriend ! Though we've broke up, we do still contacting each other. You never knew how much i love you and need you everytime. You changed to the bad Iswandy when only you get influenced much by your friend. You told me that you're not, but i know. I can feel everything that you done to me. You lie to me most, but i still trust you. Angry and scolding you is to ponder what is your problem. I mean, your mistakes. All we do is always, quarrell. But, i still can stand everything. But now, no more. You are getting on my nerves already, so you know what i mean. Gave you lotsta chances, you paid me back diffrently. The most important thing is,

I know you that that i miss you. But, i dont really sure that you miss me. I guess no. You dont. I dont wanna know about it anymore. Im just sitting here alone to find the better guy than you. Whom didnt make my heart pain and lonely. When asking for a meet, you could give me excuses. I hate it, so lets be fair. No more sentence to add about you.

This mae be my last post of you, i guess you should know why.
I cant bare nor stand being this wae anymore. Just one look at the picture, tears fall.
Thought, you would shared every problem you faced. But, you failed to. You just forget about it already. Since you with your brand new girl, lustlong for know. Im not the type to get my heartbroken, im the type to get upset and cry. But now, what happend? Again, tears fall.
You mae not know what im facing right now, felt like. ARRRRG*.
Is this the kawan sejati ive known? Is this the real Zul that ive really trust? Is this the one whom im refering to? You mae read my blog, but the person whom typing mae not be as cheerful as ever. I mae be stoned-head from now onwards, every person did shit towards me. And now, you and yourselves done it. I never wanted this to happend, when you're bored im always here. When im bored, you're always there. But now, theres no more kawan sejati for me already. Kawan sejati do cry also, as stated best friend. But, you're not that type of kawan sejati nor best friend. From now onwards, i mae not be contacting you nor msnin with you anymore. I dont want your girl to be angry with you because of me later on. So, the best is to do our own things. We mae not have relationships, but we're friends. Now, no more. I wont bother your life and hers, no time. I want you to be happy as always, as you did to me.. I would miss the night mcges from you kawan sejati. I mae be dumb as asshole after what ive seen. *TEARS FALLING. This should be our first and the last contacting my beloved friend, i hope you know how i felt now. You said that, you cannot see me cry. Then, why didnt you tell me about it earlier on? Or you just want to hurt me by making this up? Is this the real "kawan sejati?" I guess, no not anymore. Let me shout in silence, you just wont listen now. You bother her more than your kawan sejati here. Let me die in silence and do things alone and no helping hands from you.
No more sharing of problems and secret again, all gone from now onwards. Crying about this, would make me sick and sick. Mae get flu easily, you dont know. Yet, you dont bother.
So, when you're bored dont mcg me anymore. Mcg her is more peaceful for you. So long my kawan sejati, tc. Ly as my best.f , sobs.


Thanks for everything, thanks for all you had done the goods towards me.
I have a nice time chatting with you around and contacting you. I was so damn shocked when i just knew that you had a girl. I wanted to cry, tears of joy kawan. No matter what, i happy for you kawan. Take good care of her, well you know what i mean about all this. And why, your my bestest kawan sejati. While typing, my tears fall. Cant type anymore, fingers are shivering & shaking. For all i know, im speechless. And no one to turn to next time. I wont bother you nor disturb you anymore again...................... SOBSOB.
*TEARS FALLING.


1. Besides your lips, where is your favourite spot to get kiss?
~ neck & ear.
2. How do you feel when you wake up this morning?
~feel like sleeping back again.
3. Who was the last person you took photo with?
~my four favourite girls.
4. Would you consider yourself to be spoiled?
~of course no.
5. Would you ever donate blood?donate ??
~yes, of course.
6. Have you ever had a best friend who was the opposite sex?
~yes.
7. Do you want someone dead?
~yes, that slipar.
8. What does your last message says?
~"call me now mummy, urgent." by Baby Jepon.
9. What are you thinking right now?
~to be with him now.
10. Do you wish someone to be with you right now?
~always and forever.
11. What is the time you go to bed last night?
~thinking about him all day and cry.
12. Where did you buy the T-shirt you are wearing now?
~currently, wearing plain grey T-shirt.
13. Is someone on your mind?
~yes, Boboi.
14. Who was the last person who texted you?
~Baby Jepon.
16. Who is no. 2 having relationship with?
~i dont know lah.
17. Is no. 3 a male or female?
~female of course.
18. If no. 7 & no. 10 get together, would it be a good thing?
~obviously no.
19. What is no. 1 studying about?
~no time of that.
20. When was the last time you had a chat with them?
~Kak Idah, now. The rest i dont know.
21. Is no. 4 single?
~yes, single.
22. Say something about no. 3.
~they are my everything.
23. What do you think about no. 3 & no. 5 being together?
~not that sure.
24. Descibe no. 9.
~his cute, handsome & lovable.
25. What will you do if no. 6 & no. 7 fight?
~i'll smack that no.7.
26. Do you like no. 8?
~yes i am, shes cute like a teddybear.

STOP BEING SARCASTIC TO ME OKAY! DONT JUST ABOUT SMALL MATTER

YOU PEOPLE WOULD MESSED UP WITH ME? SICKENING PEOPLE.

I HATE THIS OKAY DEAREST PEOPLE, IF YOU KEPT ON DOING THIS WAY.

KEPT DOING IT, YOU MAKING ME FAMOUS. YOU PEOPLE KEPT MIND ABOUT

PEOPLES' BACKGROUND, OHH GOSH PLEASE DONT.

DONT EVER BOTHER ME ABOUT THIS ANYMORE, MAEB TODAY IS YOUR DAY.

TOMORROW,WILL BE MY DAY. STOP HERE, IVE ENOUGH OF YOU PEOPLE

NONSCENCE. JUST SHUT UP YOUR BLOODY-MOUTH CLOSED.

Kinda busy yesterday, so didnt have time to update.
Yesterday finish paper kinda late, waiting for Fyfi to finish her paper at 12.
Saw "him", and i was speechless. Skip// Lepak near our school and then went back to court to meet Cod'zy. Lepak for while, then went to Cino's crib to meet nenek. Then, went to meet my ex at mac with Fyfi. Meeting him, was bored. And then, went back home to eat. Suuketot was already at my crib, so Fyfi and i start eating. We were damn hungry, then went to court to buy cigg. Again, send Fyfi to bustop she took bus then i went back to court with Irakenet.
Lepaking for while, then go home. From now onwards, lepaking for me is the boring thing ever.
Damn bored to lepak and doing nothing, went back then start go bath. Then, after that... Went to Cino's crib again. Didnt went to Ngaji, tired & lazy. Go home straight, then sleep.

Today, finish paper at 11. Went to Boonlay to lepak for while with Zai and siblings.
Lepak for while, then went home. Then slack, gosh damn tired here.
So, now im just updating blog and tagged. Btway, i wont forgot this ...
To Iswandy, Happy 11 AdvancedSary ex boyfriend. Though, we've broke up. I do love and miss you lots dearest.

Ohh, I hate this part right here. He hates when i say him, "gayboy" .
SAME AS ME OKAY KAWAN, YOU CALLED ME "SIYAL" DO YOU THINK I CAN ACCEPT IT? DO YOU? OHHH, FORGOT YOU HAVE NO HEARTS. BETOL KAN?
DAH LAA HAMDANI, AKU TAKNAK GDO DGAN KAW. AKU TAK HINGGIN UNTOK KAW PANGGIL BDAK2 PONPAN KAW TOK SENTOH AKU. KALO MCM GINIE, KAW YG KENE DULU BKAN AKU. DAH LAH, AKU ADER SUPPORTERS LAA. ITU, KAWAN BAEK KAW ISWANDY. AND BTWAY, AKU TAKPERLU KAW UNTOK KACAW HDOP AKU SKRNG...PLEASE EH, STOP THE CRAP YOU'VE DONE. AS EASY AS ABC, TALK HERE END HERE. HAL KAW DGAN AKU, KYTER BULEY SETTLE SENDIRI. TAKPER ADER ORNG CAMPOR TANGAN.


Ohmg, today wheater was damn hot. Never thought that today was very hot day.
Didnt get enough sleep last night, so i was sleepy during every lessons. *Yawn.
Being nag by p.e teacher, and i was so fucked up with him. That stupid raindrops from mouth arguing with me about the napfa test. *Whatever. And today was not in a good mood, bad hair day. ARRRG* Today, wont go for lepak nor going Cino's crib. Was damn tired now, body aching like hell. Bed was calling me to take a nap, hmmmmmmm. Not much about today, as im not in a good mood of typing long stories. Tmr Maths, CPA & Music test. What on earth do i have a Music test during midyearexam? *Idiot. Whatever, so people i need to take short nap.
Will update again when i woke up, tc readers.

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For everything. Maeb, ive split my tougue just now while chatting with you.
Im just, not ready in relationships with others only for Iswandy.
Hope, you know what im refering. It just that, his the one that im in love with.
Though, he have broke up. I think, we better be friends as always.
Even my mum agrees my relationships stays with Iswandy. I dont make you jealous about this, but im stating the fact. Ive known Iswandy long enough than ive known you. His the only guy that understands me well enough. I just hope that i didnt broke your heart about this. I just saying this to express my feelings. Skip// I will be changing my tagboard. Tc readers.


Today didnt school, as stated school holiday for Vesak Day last Saturday.
So, today get a chance to wake up late. Ohh, not to forget sumthink. Happy 11th Birthday to my Lil cousin, NurFarisha. May your day be as blissedful as always dearest.Mum was out early in the morning for her Computer Class at Summerset. My maid was out to Market to buy a breakfast for me and sister.
Mum didnt cook today, so she let us few bucks at computer desk.
Dad was working as usual today, My abg was in camp since yesterday.
Kinda bored when i left at home with my lil sister and my beloved nenek.
ARRRG* Okay, cut it out. Hmmm, didnt went out today. Tired, and scared mum would nag at me and told me that every single day i will be going out. Sorry, mother.
Yeah, she should know im an active person who loves to go out.
Im so bored now, and i was hungry. Havent yet bath, ooooooooooooo*
Thought of meeting him today, but i dont want to go out today. Mum will scold, so i dont.
Ummmm, okay laa. Im just waiting for my maid to return and eat then go take a bath.
So long, tc readers.


Today as stated in the calendar was Mothers' Day, went to Cino's crib to meet his mum.
Miss his mother alot, long time didnt meet up. Just contacting through the phone only.
Umm, firstly i wish my dearest mama then his mother. Never do i wish my friend mum, but i closed with his mother now. Then, his mum ask me to eat sum food that she cooked before i come. She cook briyani, vadeh & lots more. Its mothers' day right, so she cook for her mum and her siblings. Umm, after eating i accompany NanaDevil to print sum photos at 502.
Saw this 2 siblings from my school. She was like, ohmg. For this girl " Kaw takmu nak step fanae dpan aku, kaw dah tkot dgn abg kaw diamdiam jek laah ehs. Peg mmps sudah pnpan nak step fanae, takder harapan betol. Ohh terlupe, kaw kan minahrep. Ohhh, baru aku ingat ehh. P mati siangsiang okay girl? Im waiting for that. Takecare." She's just act big and school and outside, nonscence. Then, went back to her house. Before that, fetch my lil sister at Hua yi bustop. So, from there we heading to Cino's crib again. In his house now, was very kehchio. Very. His uncle and aunties were there celebrating the Mothers' Day. Okay, i and my lil sister was just busybody at there. Hahahahahah, sum sort of that. So, today was very fun day of celebrating Mothers' Day. Yet, my family didnt celebrate the Mothers' Day today. Thought of going out, but they scared that we would reached home late. Yaah, i still on Probation now.
Just waiting for the day to finish my sentence quickly. Hell yeah, next month. Wooohoo !
16June2009 will be the day i last step at MCYS. Eh, why i talk about my on curfew? HAHAHA. Okay then, currently mcging with Iswandy the "Pak Hitam". Hahah, sorry bie.
And he called me, "Mak Hitam". Whatever laa kan bie? HAH. Okay laa, i have sumthink to do now. So long, tc readers.

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Happy Mothers' Day Mama !
Ily, though we had alot of quarrell and fought.
I do still love you, and i wont forget your advises to me Mama.
Ilysm. If no you, i would not be seeing the world. Thanks for carry me in your stomach for
9Month. I know it was half dead of delivering me to the world, thanks Mama.
Though, i have alot of sins to you. I know you whould always forgive me in everything i do.
Ily again Mama. Thanks My Beloved Mama Ratnah,I LOVE YOU, FOREVER YOU MAMA.

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Umm, most to most i always upload this picture. Not alot picture of him at my lappy.
Firstly i wanna say, "I MISS YOU EX BOYFRIEND". I dont know how much longer can i take to recover my heartbroken. You say it all, but i wont accept. Cause, you're no longer the old Iswandy that i've known long ago. You've changed alot my dearest, and i dont know why.
Since you became friend back with "HIM", you forget about me. Why? I dont know how much more can i take, all i have to do is to let you go and to let you realised what mistakes you had done towards me now. Im stressed with your "New Behaviour" towards me. I dont accept, you should know what i expect from you beloved. Everypeople whom i known long, told me to be more patient while having relationships with you. But, i do say i really cant. They see my tears falling out of my eye, they hug me. They do really care about my problems with you. Do you really takenote of that my dear? No, i dont see any of that. You seem not to know how to love and takecare of me. All you do is, sticking all around with "HIM". Im sick and tired to hear his name all over. I hate him, thats it. And i will not admit that his my ex. His just to over-act & egoish. Do you ego beloved? I guess, yes you are. You just dont know how to love me, do you know what is the maening of love? I guess, you dont know. Thats why you done shit towards me. When the first time i sound you break, you wont accept. You told me that you wanna changed, and i'll say okay and last chance. But, in the end you have not changed to the old Iswandy.I was waiting like a dog, you dont know.. And you dont want to find out why im like that. You know what, you always think about yourselves. And not me, you think about your friends and others. Why not me? Who am i to you? A dog or a normal friend of yours? Sorry if all the words im saying here would affect you heart or whatever. But, you need to know that "I LOVE YOU SO MUCH, AND YOU DID THIS TO ME. HOW COULD YOU ISWANDY!" I cry, you dont know. Maeb, you dont bother about it anymore. All these while, you seem not to appriciate my love to you. And you dont know how sincere my love towards you, you just dont know that. You dont bother to come to school everyday, kept on tucking at bed and sleep.
My life shatterd when you did this to me. Mum gave me support, she told me to be calm and not to think too much. And dont just about this relationships problem, would affect you health.
In the end, it affect. I sick for 3days, mum send me to polyclinic. On the day we broke up, i wanted to cry in the train. But i really cant, i cry inside my heart. Kept thinking of you everywhere i go. People dont notice it, and i do it as a low-profile to me. Baby, do you really love me? If you do, then why must you turn out this way? How to concerntrade on my exam if i kept saying and thinking about you all day. See, after we break up then we start to contact everyday.
But if we still in the relationships, you dont seem to contact me everyday. You would give me 1001 excuses. Tell me that you have no pprd balance and etc. *Sigh.
I dont know what to day anymore, its all about that "BLOODY STUPID CHITOT A FRIEND OF YOURS" make you changed diffrently. Please forget about him, you tolld me that his caring? WTF*. Am i dreaming? HAHAHAHAHA ! His just to over-acting okay bie. Please leave him, need not to have a friend who black-hearted like him. Find another good friend, like Yazli. When you with Yazli, theres nothing wrong with you. And im happy with that, his trying to help me cause of you. His a nice and good person, learn frm him.
With him, you have no problem. You did go home early and didnt lie to me. But, with that "IDIOT", you didnt listen to my advises went home late at night & didnt come home.
Do you think im not worried? Like a mother worried about her daughter didnt went home.
I was thinking about that. Hais, i dont know what more you want from me.
I gave enough love to you now, but you just dont cherish it thats all.
My heart told me, to give you once last chance. But, i told myself i wont be with you again now.
I scared that you did the same thing again. Last 2days, talk otp with you was great.
Miss your voice and your laughter. Miss that babyboy. I convince you to changed and talk about your mistakes, and then you listen attentively now. But, why should i say all that to you? It is because, i love you. You just dont know. I told everymistakes you've made, and you realised it. Why should i told you? You should know, you told me that you dont know what you're doing. Crap. Then, you said that i know you yourselves and your background. Yes, i do know about you alot. Currently, mcging with you now.. Miss you Baby. Sobs. So long, tc readers.

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