I should not say hello for now. My heart damn hurt lots, damn heart. It seem i know something bad would happened to me. Yes i do, its true. My heart stated the fact that something had happened. Bie, i've heard it. It seems someone likes you now, and my heart shattered deeply when i heard about the news. You nearly make me wanna end up something already. I miss you badly now, yet what i've heard is a very hard thing. Babe, thanks for telling all this. If not, i would not know. I love him, still. But, i cant accept him first for now. I really wanted to cry now, but i should be strong right? As i already told myself that im moving on. But, i really dont have self-confidence for now. Im becoming weak to weaker, love really make me wanna ended up life. I can still move on, but for this i couldn't. Baby, maeb you dont know how i felt.. Thought you would share everything to me when something popping out. I really thought of that bie. I thought you've already changed, but it seems you're not my beloved. You wanted me to be with you eventhough we've break up, but what i get now? What i get? This is the present that you gave to me now uh? And now, im currently mcging with you. And my tears fall, i really cannot control anymore. How could she said that huh? Why must it be you? Why wouldn't other or someone else? Im sick already beloved, i really cant be myself anymore from now onwards. I shouldn't have mad at you already, and i didnt now. I control my anger in anyways, it is because i love you. You didnt know how much i love you, i love you from the bottom of my heart. Maeb, i wont accept any other of my ex except you. I promise that already baby, you really make my tears fall right now infront of my mother. If i told this to mum, would you think she would shut her mouth? Ohh my, how can this happened? Why must you keep on silent when this popping out uh baby? Like i said, i miss the old you. But you never listen. I wanna die can? Hope you understand why. Everytime i said that i wanna suicide, you scold me. And say dont say this laa that laaa. But now, should i move on or to end up life? I cannot force myself for loving other boys, and have to be honest now i love you so much already. But, i dont wanna tell you first. Cause for all i know is that you havent changed. Dont blame me if i drink alot or take all the stupid stuff. I cannot do anything else, except that. Why must you kept this from me? I miss the old you, really ! Ohmg, please please please ! How i wish you were still mine now. Hais, maeb i have to let you go on with her. Should i or should not? Cause, she had confront and told you that she's in-love with sec3 NT boy. Who else uh? Who else does she close to? Oh, you're her best pal kan? Ouhh yar, i forgot. But its okay for me, i wont stop you of making friends with girls. Baby, i think i should let go of you. What i mean is, to forget you though were only ex. If only she's yours, *hais*. Congrats baby. Hope you will get her, cause she's in-love with you. Like i said, i really really really hate a girl like that. I know she got back-stabb me. I just kept quiet, she thinks shes pretty? Fucking shit uh, crossed over my dead body uh girl. Oh well, what you gonna say next its your problem. I wont hesitate people like you, whom love to snatch other lover. Ohh sorry, im not his lover. But im his ex lover, get that girl. As i already told him to read this post as soon as possible. I hope, his reading it later on. Baby, all i wanted from you is your sincerity in love. Not others, but because of something we would always fought and quarrell. From now onwards bie, i wont be contacting you can? Cause, i wont want to hurt my heart and myself already. I've enough of all this, i want to make myself feel good and free stress. You insert more and more of my stress already my sweetheart, trust me one day you will forget me and be with her. I hope she would took good care of you for me. Baby, i love you from the bottom of my heart. Cause, in my heart theres only you in there. One last thing, I LOVE YOU FOR ALL MY LIFE. If i die, i want you to fullfill my wish that i've said to you past few weeks ago. And maeb, i wont be posting happy happy post anymore. I felt sick and im weak now, hope he understand what i've said. Gtg, toodles. *sobsob*