I've just got back from school here. Met beloved in the morning near the school there. I miss him so much, that i couldn't stand my tears. Tears wanted to fall when he look at my eye, i miss his precious smile. Baby, how i wish i could hug and say sorry to you my dear. On behalf, im wrong.

But, i shouldn't have to be emo this much. I love you, still. In school today, i really cant concerntrade much. My mind was somewhere else, and i dont know why. I got headache after recess, and i was accompanied by my chinese friend to class. How weak am i today, gosh. Teacher said that i think too much already. They ask me to go home and rest, but i insist. I wont want to go home alone just like that. I would miss him much, hais. And today, i get back my old friend Nanatoksu and others. We didnt fought accually, but it was just misunderstanding. I wont want them to help me with my problems. They always solve my problems together, cause they know im weak in person to do alone. So, for what can i do is to be alone and independent without them helping me out. And now my head pain, still. Gosh, please i dont want to think too much already. All i wanted is to focuss on my studies and passed my exams. Babylove, im sorry once again. I know i would not being harsh to you that day, but i really cant control after what i saw at her blog. You told me that you're out with Pandan's friend, but what i read from her blog is you whom mcg her. Wtf bie, why behaving like this? You told me diffrent stories, they told me diffrent stories. Which one should i believe my dear? Hais, whatever it is. We're back to normal, but i still weak. Really really really weak, i told myself that should i end up my life this way? You scold me when i said that everytime. I wont want it to happened anyway, but its fated. Okay whatever it is, im already okay with you my dear. Thanks for your concern towards me this while, i appriciate it alot. Whatever larh girl, talk all you want but my skin is really thick. *bluek*. To my baby, dear you need not to care about me somehow now. I can took care of myself already, i've grown up and im fifteen already. I know how to took care of myself, and you too dont think too much already. Past is past, let it be. I dont wanna fought with anyone now, but they make me to. Okay whatever it is, its already past. I wont want to eleborate more about it. For what i want now is, to thanked my beloved. Hubby, thank you for looking after me aye? I love you. I hope you understand what i meant dearest. Hope this friday, you will read my blog.