Gosh, im really frustrated now.

Angry/Mad about something, and there goes my lil sister make me more frustrated.

She make me wanna wack her 'till death. Serious, wtf shes damn rude to me.

Fuck, who the hell is she to raise her voice at me? What else, i wack her.

Fuck, she damn make me wanna kill myself siaaa. Im stress about something and there she goes her raising voice. What the hell, i cant take it. Seriously, i really cant take it. But at first, talk to her nicely to switch the laptop off. Cause she kept playing it everyday and every hour, told her what if the laptop burst. (Raise my voice loud) She kept saying the bad words and scold me.

I slap her at first, then i pulled her in the room and wack her. Im shouting at the top of my voice, and thats it. I wack her, till shes half alive. Push and bang her head at the wall, (bang her head slowly) She testing my patients. Hell yeah, she shout and there i go take cane and wanted to cane her. But, i didnt find the cane. So, she trying to lock the door. But she cant, my room door cant be lock. Cause, spoilt. And i kept pushing and slamming the door like mad girl, she kept shouting. "Taknak-taknak, nnti kakak pukol. Taknak-taknak, aku taknak bukak !!!"

I HACK CARE. What shes trying to say, i hack care. Even, she called mum. She told mum everything, do you think i care? Fuck ass. NO ! Mum called my phone, but its inside my room with that stupid sister. Brother text me, " kaw asal nak bunoh adek kaw?"

I replied, " AKU LEBEH RELA BUNOH DIRI AKU DARIPADE ADEK AKU SENDIRI !"

He replied, "Kaw knpe sial!"

I didnt reply, and i throw my phone. I really cant stand it anymore !!

Mum love them, but not me. Mum pampered them, but not me.

I was alone, no one else love me. I dont believe that anyone will love me. Serious, im crying and crying. Told myself that i am "SUCK, SUCK AND SUCK".

Told myself that, im not myself today. My throat was very pain now, no one cares anyway.

But seriously, think back. I would rather kill myself rather than my sister.

NO ONE LOVES ME, IF THEY DO I DONT EVEN BELIEVE.

Talk all you want, but i dont bother.
Before they bought new handphone, told mum first that i wanna buy new handphone cause mines already spoilt and cant charge. She said, okay end of this month i'll buy for you.

And i say, "Thanks mama, sayang mama."

In the end, on her birthday she bought new handphone for sister. Okay, first i dont mind.

Mengalah laaa in malay. And, nearly end of month thought mum would bought for me.

But, she bought for abang. WTF ! From there i can see she "PILEH KASIH LAA SIYAL !"

Thats it, i know her. She choose brother and sister rather than me.

Shit, and she even confessed. "ABANG ANAK MAMA".

And me? If she said that, abang his her son. And what about me? She told me before,

"ADEK ANAK AYAH". Me?

Im whose daughter? Tell me. They push me aside.

Mum said that, but dad didnt. Cause, he didnt bother what mum saying.

He just cant bothered, serious. I more to LOVE DAD THAN MUM.

Dad knows how i felt everytime, but mum she just dont understand.

Though, she the same gender. Dad more understood me and my problems.

Mum even said, "NUR ANAK AYAH". Yes, im his daughter but whose the one whom carrying me in the stomach for 9month 9days? Am i correct? Mum should love me and them.But, mum prefers abang. Hell yeah, everything she would tell my abang.

And after my abang, received my mcg about that. He immediately call my aunt from Cck.